Why is it so difficult to forgive ourselves? I am continually amazed by what we keep tucked deep within our hearts; pin pricks of the past that arise and wound over and over reminding us of our flaws and imperfection.
Is this what God intended? Or, is this mental trap something that has been so thoroughly indoctrinated in us by organized religions, literature, media, and individuals vested in dominating those who feel and believe they are powerless?
I believe our spiritual journey is about exploring the illusion of this duality; right vs wrong, good vs evil, light vs dark, powerful vs powerless -- all the judgements that separate our 'self' from our true divine nature and separate ourselves from others.
We are all one~
And, we make mistakes. That's how we learn and grow. We have feelings that we don't want, or like, or wish we could magically transmute. I think this is called "being human". It's what we do with those feelings, how we make amends, and our heartfelt desire to correct the mistake that is important. Then, we must let it go.
If we accept that we are perfectly imperfect. Or, imperfectly perfect, I think we can begin to relax and move through life with more ease.